Monday, April 28, 2008

mymy.
feel as though age has caught up with me.
yes wth.
i feel so aunty with an aching back after
coming from the market with her hands full
and cringing face.

went for my first tabletennis trng.
omg. my hand was freaking trembling
while playing the forehand.
wth. this is the hideous, after-effects of a fear.

but i got over it.
by the end of the trng, my hands werent shaking anymore.
just that i've gotta "feel" it again.
"feel" the ball when i hit it.
yikes.

and the COACH.
coach's wife took us today actually.
she wasnt too bad.
but uh. she and mr kim does have some bad meets.
mr kim hates her and her husband x(
then again.
who cares about the oldman.
i've got enough of not being able to train
forehand because of him.
roarr.

realised tabletennis is part of me even without me knowing.
its like i feel comfortable playing it.
maybe because i've been playing since i was 8.
a decade ago =X omg.

my back's aching.
i'v got back the usual blisters on my fingers and feet.
but its okay.
i like the game.
the kayak team was having their trng.
the ppl i've once suffered through with.
ohwells. its not even acquaintance anymore.
its fine by me. but aiyo.
its like knowing someone but not saying hi for reasons deemed unfit.
awkward feeling when i walked past.
but i'm glad i quit.
ahaha. wouldnt wana turn chaota and having ta live huge shoulders
and bulging muscles.
lean is nice.

aaaaah.
it feels good playing tabletennis again somehow.
havent touched it in AGES!

anyway. to sum it all up.
i attended some "takingcareofyourskin" course that my friends signed up today.
omg. it was the LONGEST hour in my life.
it felt so uncomfortable.
to be stuck in a room full of girls wearing makeup,
all dolled up and dressy.
ALL WITH LONG HAIR..bimbos,ahlians,childishfreshies and vainpots.
omg.save my life.
i was one of the few to rush out.
sheesh.
hokay. that's about it.

listening to a philharmonic band on central now.
missed my mosaic monday earlier on.
didnt manage ta get dinner cus' i forgot ta take money out.
and i'm gonna turn in asap so the hunger pangs dont set in.
i've got a secret hobby. that was lost and takenover by
the influence of hiphop music.
ahahaa.
i love listening to symphonies man.
it rawks. esp after a long day.

aaaaaaaaaaaaah x)) feel my relieve that today's over.
tmr i've gotta be up at 6.
driving's at 730. circuit.
i'd rather wakeup and have the circuit all to myself and a
small number of other cars.
then squeeze when the crowd comes in later on.
so yes.for that i'd get outta my bed.
and come home ta sleep after that.

gonna eat papaya now.

wth were you thinking today.
sheesh.
i'm not dependent on anyone.
trying to use your power of language to cover up
and save you from finding excuses by twisting and rephrasing
it still doesnt justify your actions does it.
making it all seem right when its not.
act as though nothing out of the ordinary happen.
i wldnt have been so jumpy on normal occasions.
but it seems that everytime when i do it, you'll make a big fuss
out of it.
i'm not even sure what happened today.
it was all fine.
maybe you were pisst off.so what.
taking it out on me isnt gonna solve anything.
makes matter worst.
you usually wont have been like that.
and i'm not sorry about today.
there was really something up with you.
if you dont speak up i wont know
what's on your mind.
the air just needs to be cleared.
arguments start because clarification is needed.
not to cut it all off.